Monday, January 9, 2012

Guilt for the win

Sigh.  Where to begin on this one.

We're all comfortable with my geekiness, yes?  And how I play video games?

So I'm in a leadership position in a certain Star Wars MMO guild. (I am vague because of you, spammy credit sellers who just google everything with the name and post comments.  Fist shake at you.)  And last night, I inadvertently upset someone in the guild.

Long story short, I really didn't mean to upset anyone.  It was one of those "trying to do my job and look out for everyone, but in doing so some people were upset by my actions" scenarios with no way to please everyone. 

This is the kind of stuff that torments me.  I did what I thought was right, now someone (or possibly several someones) are upset.  I hate knowing that.  I absolutely hate knowing that something I did upset someone.  I obsess over guilt (real or perceived) like a cat obsesses over catnip - except I imagine there is a lot less fun/happiness involved.  So I apologize to the internets in general 'cause I am sure in some way there was an option that would have been light side points for everyone. 

Have I mentioned I'm working on letting things go?  I had a bit of regression over the holidays.  Maybe I should just view this situation as helping me learn how to deal with these things. 


  1. Suckage. It really does suck when you inadvertently upset other people, and possibly people you don't even know in person.

    See, this is why you're a WAY better person than me. I've always believed that. You're kind to everyone and try to not offend anyone. I'm typically only kind to the people I like, therefore it's usually only people I know. I try to be better at it. I look up to you for your ability and commitment to be nice to everyone because it's so important to you.

    I don't think I've helped any with any kind of advice for your situation...just thought you should know that I admire your generosity, kindness, and friendship.

  2. That's very kind of you! I admire how confident you are about putting your opinion out there. But I think everybody is a work in progress.